Stop Paralyzing Yourself

Personally, I struggle with finding His direction.

I suddenly pray all the time, pop open the Bible whenever I can, and when I think I've found the answer, my Bible suddenly is less important and my prayer life slowly dwindles.

Sound familiar? You aren't the only one.

I'm guilty of doing this a lot. Maybe this is just me, but I feel like I'm not the only one ... Don't get me wrong, sometimes I'm in His word and soaking it up like a hot day by the poolside. However, more often than not, I find myself with the first scenario. So how do I get out of this cycle?

Well, first things first: Be a real Christian. Not to call myself a fake Christian, but Christians are supposed to live everyday for HIM. Unfortunately, I find myself constantly stressing, focusing on finals next week, making sure I have a plan for my life before it changes within the next 5 minutes, etc. But one thing Christians seem to water down is ...

FAITH. Sure, we read Matthew 17:14-20 and think, "Well why can't I move mountains? That's ridiculous." But the disciples said the same thing! We are supposed to have faith in everything we do. Faith to rid of us of our worries, to move the demons we face daily, to accept He is who He is and will do as He wills!

I love knowing the game plan. So I often hope that I'll just have a revelation and BAM I'll know the plan and I can go on living my life. But faith is required to truly live with Him. A lot of times we complain ... "I don't understand why God can't just write in the sky MAJOR IN THIS and do this and that in your life, and I shall be content with you." First off, Jesus is what makes Him content with us. We have no right to think we're ever going to be in the perfect spot. We always have to squirm or work our way to where He wants us; it's an eternal struggle between who gets the seat: you or God. Second, if he really did reveal to you in a dream, how could you know it was really Him? Thirdly, we paralyze ourselves by not moving and just sitting around waiting for Him to answer. This is a big one ...

DON'T PARALYZE YOURSELF! Seriously, don't do it. You're not sure what God's will is? Have you been reading the scripture regularly and praying? Good, that's a great start. Now get off your lazy butt! As Proverbs 6:9 says, "How long will you lie there, O sluggard? When will you arise from your sleep?"

Now you need to make sure it's not immoral. This requires being in His word so you're continually cleansing your mind of your own thoughts. There is no special technique to approaching this.

For example, if there are tons of dots all over a blank page, we usually attempt to go for one little dot out of the many because we believe God wants us there. However, if we look to Adam and Eve, they did WHATEVER they wanted, so long as they didn't eat from the ONE tree God commanded them not to eat from. Essentially, we have it backwards ... So don't be afraid to make decisions, because that is lacking trust in God. We need to be with Him so often that He truly is your best friend. Your best friend can finish your sentences or read your thoughts before you even voice them. This is the sort of relationship we need with God. We have to be so in tune with Him that we become like Him. Obviously we need to accept advice and consider it, as well as work out the plan. We just have to be ready for a change. In the Bible, nobody prays, gets a revelation, then acts upon it. Instead, they are living within God's commands, making plans, carrying them out and THEN God changes the plan. Don't worry, He has it under control!

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight" (Proverbs 3:5-6). Proverbs, chapters 16 and 21 is also super applicable ... Just don't forget to test that it's His way, not yours or anyone/anything else (1 John 4)!

Also, don't worry, I'm totally the preacher talking to herself right now. I'm very guilty of always trying to plan my life until I'm 80 years old. Yeah, that's gonna work ... But seriously it will because I've told myself enough that it fits perfectly ;)

Anyways ... Stepping off the pedestal now ... I'm just a college kid trying to figure life out. No amount of education can prepare me for that. However, it's really nice to know you're not alone. Other kids have the same problems and God has it under control ... I just have to remember that.

Hopefully this brought greater understanding to you like it did me when I was first told this. :)

God is Jealous and Ready to Dim the Lights -- FOR YOU

Hey loves,

It's me. I know, I'm alive still I just don't take the time to write as much as I should! Okay, blogging business: Today I heard a lot of suffering from friends and my friends' friends ... Then there was me complaining about classes. Oh, which, FOR THE RECORD is something I'm blessed with and take for granted and complain about way, way too often. The suffering that others are experiencing, such as this girl who found out she has cancer and her response is that "Cancer Doesn't Scare God" (that is faith for you!). You can read her blog here: http://kaylanicole42.blogspot.com/2013/04/cancer-doesnt-scare-god.html?showComment=1367298721501#c3588273405938604299

Not only that, but I have known a lot in my own life that are suffering. Life is tough and life is rough. A lot of times we are told, "Just think, people out there have it way worse than you!" which is more than likely to be true. But even then, what if you really did have the worst life on earth with everything evil thrown at you? What then? Job from the Bible simply trusted in Him. I think in America we get so caught up in the mundane things that we let life fly past us before we even have a chance to blink. Today, I told myself I would enjoy every moment and make the most of every opportunity. I failed. Haha. I guess I shouldn't laugh because it's not really that funny. I let stupid classes at Las Positas get in the way of a good day! Life is what you let Christ make it! We like to think of ourselves as first. We are number one. We are so high and mighty and have every right to be entitled to everything (cozy home, wealth, laughter, health, friends, etc. you name it) but this is exactly when the "reality check" should go off in your head. Everyone feels they are worthy and deserve "it" -- whatever it may be -- just because they worked hard, prayed hard, lived hard. That's HUMAN. But that isn't realistic, is it? Just because you did all the dishes doesn't mean you get a big thank you and chocolates and a standing ovation, does it? When life is going all wrong, we can't snap our fingers and make it perfect, can we? Oh, that's right, because we aren't GOD. Yeah, our mistake ... We are not number one. We are not high and mighty. We don't deserve it. You think jealousy is a bad trait? Well, Christ has every right to be jealous because He yearns for us to give up our identity and find it in Him. Stop whining and being jealous about something that's not even yours! God deserves all the glory yesterday, today, and tomorrow.

The reality is that struggles make us tougher and His love make us stronger. Let that light shine, ladies and gentlemen. This show isn't for you. Your life isn't for you; it's for God. Life has always been about Him. Let's get over ourselves and our problems that seem so terrible. If God brought you to it, He will bring you through it. By "through it," I'm not even saying you will like the answer. In fact, you could quite possibly hate it. One day, though, we will see His glory and all of it will fade away. The unpaid bills, the oil that needs to be changed in your car, the Starbucks drink that was messed up, being late for work, finding out terrible news ... LEAVE IT at the CROSS. Do it. I dare you to actually leave it behind and give it up to Him. Stop worrying and start thanking.

Anyways, just some thoughts. Sometimes, God dims the light in our lives to make Himself brighter. Not because He needs to, but because we have our sunglasses on all the time that prevent us from seeing the big picture. New post is coming soon hopefully, I have been wanting to write about it lately. Let me know your thoughts and thanks for reading. See ya next time (except not really ;)

His Letter of Recommendation

"You yourselves are our letter of recommendation, written on our hearts, to be known and read by all. And you show that you are a letter from Christ delivered by us, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts" (2 Cor. 3:2-3). 

He wants YOU to be His letter of recommendation!

Typically, when turning in a college application or a job application, they prefer -- or in many cases, require -- a letter of recommendation. As 2 Cor. 3:2-3 says, you and I are continually writing something. Is it something God would want? Would someone look at your letter of recommendation and scoff at it? "Seriously? This girl can't even spell 'totally' but instead has to say 'totes'. Honestly, the word 'totally' is completely unnecessary altogether; it is so unprofessional." If you want a GOOD letter of recommendation, you put in the time and effort to make a good letter; that's just to make your letter acceptable. If you want a GREAT letter, you have to give your time and effort daily. Put yourself aside, leaving all your hate and selfish ambitions aside and say, "Lord, I want YOU to live through me."

When you think about God wanting YOU and ME to be His letter of recommendation, it's a little crazy. The God of the universe who created the stars and the universe wants ME to write a letter of recommendation for HIM?! Yeah, right. I can "totes" do that and not make a complete fool out of both of us ... I think it's just the coolest thing that He wants us to recommend Him to others. Of course I want to recommend Him ... Or do I? If I think He's worth it, I will recommend Him to everyone! However, I don't, and I can't say I even have a legit excuse in the slightest for that except laziness, lack of passion, or "too busy." I can't believe I can actually use those as excuses. I must look so smite-able to God. Haha.

Anyways ............. The reason I bring this up is because of V-day. I have a post in the past about it. Yes, I have a (wonderful) boyfriend now, but I honestly believe it's because I waited and it was worth it! While it's awesome having a significant other, it doesn't mean the world is ending because you don't have someone to smooch on the day filled with flowers and chocolates and sappiness (oh my!). ;) Make your life be one full of love and a letter of recommendation WORTH reading and super exciting!

God is Love

God is more than love; He is our judge, creator, father, etc. His being is rooted in love and forgiveness and sovereignty in carrying that out to its fullest extent. Just read the book of 1 John for more on this, especially chapter 4! In fact, you should just do it now. :)

With this in mind, clearly, He has our best interest at heart. So to say "woe is me" is truly an insult to Him. Besides, why should one feel lonely with God by them? I would challenge you to really examine your relationship with Christ. If you feel lonely, even the best man in the world won't help you fill the "God void." So fill that spot in your heart with the love only God can give and the rest will follow. By that, I mean life goes on. Life is not all flowers and happiness and love and unicorns and the perfect guy/gal. "The rest will follow" = life goes on and it gets much easier to suck it up once you put your heart in the right place. I don't mean to get all preachy -- except, I do -- and I'm talking from experience. So as Nike says, "JUST DO IT."

Fellows & Girlies: Enough with this low self consciousness!
"This is how one should regard us, as servants of Christ and stewards of the mysteries of God. Moreover, it is required of stewards that they be found faithful. But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged by you or by any human court. In fact, I do not even judge myself. For I am not aware of anything against myself, but I am not thereby acquitted. It is the Lord who judges me. Therefore do not pronounce judgment before the time, before the Lord comes, who will bring to light the things now hidden in darkness and will disclose the purposes of the heart. Then each one will receive his commendation from God" (1 Cor. 4:1-5).

Too many people -- girls and guys! -- don't have the confidence they should have. If you have Jesus, confidence should just exude. Not the cocky type of confidence, but the quiet, peaceful, triumphant in Christ type of confidence. So many men have issues when they get older from not being able to express themselves because society teaches them to bottle their emotion up (I'm learning this in sociology class -- yay Las Po edumacation!). Girls, on the other hand, think they are too "ugly" to date and that's why they don't have a date. I attribute these issues to not fully allowing Christ to love through them, but too often Christian girls/guys have these issues as well. The 1 Cor. passage just above this clearly says to let God be the judge -- not other people or even yourself! God brings to light the things now hidden in darkness, such as the future. Our job is to simply be regarded as servants of Christ by, surprisingly, being servants of Christ (shocking, I know). I am NOT discounting that it is wrong to feel self conscious, embarrassed, or secretive to maintain your dignity. Keep your integrity (for Christ's sake -- He did die for you after all). But YOUR dignity? No, get rid of yourself! Who cares if you show emotion, don't have a model body, aren't Arnold Schwarzenegger, etc. Use what you have and don't have for His glory!

For example, I'm 19, almost 20 in March. I didn't have my first "real" boyfriend until I was 18. Call me crazy, but I know I've been blessed because of it. I'm very thankful to have waited. I also avoided a whole lot of heartbreak due to teenage hormones and society's pressure to have a lover. Jesus was, is, and always will be my first and foremost lover. When your significant other's first love is Jesus as well, it really is more God glorifying. You'll both know when the time is right because it'll be in His timing.

You've Got the Powerrrrrrrr!

"For the kingdom of God does not consist in talk but in power" (1 Cor. 4:20). If you believe in  Christ and that He died on a cross for you and rose again, well, you're in luck; you've got the power -- so use it! God will never give you more than you and Him can't take on together. In fact, the phrase "God will never give you more than you can take" often gets thrown around. Usually we apply this in response to troubles and trials in life. However, in light of Valentine's day, I think it allows us to realize He never gives us more than we can take beneficially either. For example, if it makes me too prideful to have a boyfriend and a great family and a roof over my head and a bed and an education (and so on), then why would He ever choose to give me more than I can take? He doesn't want me to become too independent of Him, even if He chooses to give (or not give) such amount of blessings. He will never give us more than we can handle!

In essence, Valentine's day serves as a great reminder to love on others like Christ. (After all, to quote Les Mis, "to love another person is to see the face of God." Yes, I like that movie.) Not only that, but keeping in mind to let God be our confidence and power. We would literally astound ourselves if we just listened to Him and gave even a sliver of our selfish selves to Him. So, single or not, our purpose in life doesn't change. Keep the faith and let the author of love write His love letter to you for all to see and spread that love! Don't be selfish; He wants the world to know His passionate, eternal love. "He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart ..." I don't have a love like that. Today, I went to a movie with a friend I said I'd see previously with a different friend. I am painfully human. Life comes down to giving your all to Him in complete surrender. He can do more than we possibly imagine. Being sad about single life is silly; there's so much you can only do while you're single so take advantage of that time. You'll only have it for so long. 

Just my two cents (but it feels more like my 99 cents lol). I talk too much! See my previous v-day post here: http://beccawoll.blogspot.com/2011/02/valentines-day-musings.html [Valentine's Day Musings]
An oldie but a goodie. Not that I'm biased or anything. :p

He is Greater

Heyyyyy so it's been a while since I've written. Sorry. Again. Haha. I said I was going to write more often because I discovered people actually read this (why didn't you tell me earlier?! ;) so anyway I apologize for not keeping up with this! Anyway, this post is about a God who is greater than everything. Let me repeat that: Greater than EVERYTHING. Have you ever really sat down and let that sink in?

Age
God is greater than your age. Have you ever felt called to do something, but felt as if you were too young to accomplish the task? Well, so have a lot of people in the past, such as Jeremiah. He tells the Lord, "Alas, Lord GOD! Behold, I do not know how to speak, because I am a youth" (Jer. 1:6). How many times have I told Him that and how many times as He responded, "Do not say, ‘I am a youth,’ because everywhere I send you, you shall go, and all that I command you, you shall speak. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you” (Jer. 1:7-8). If He calls you to do something, you better do it! And I don't mean on your own time, for only God knows how long our days on earth are anyway. Do what you can while you're here and God will use you to glorify Himself, faults and all. In another instance, maybe it's not your own lack of confidence, but others' lack of confidence for you. 1 Timothy 4:12 says not to let that get to you: "Let no one despise you for your youth, but set the believers an example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity" (1 Tim. 4:12). We need to be living, breathing examples of the living, breathing word of God. Make sense? If you are a youth -- or have been a youth -- you'll realize just how difficult it is to be an example of Christ in speech, conduct, love, faith, and purity. In today's society, you see a lack of all these things. That's why we have to show we are different (in a good way!) in the way we present ourselves (to Christians and non-Christians alike).

Storm
Have you ever told God, "I really don't think I can handle this" or tell Him that He's really given you more than you can handle? Instead of telling God how big your storm is, tell your storm how big God is! He is greater than whatever you're facing currently. Everyone has a storm in their lives. Big and small; minuscule or furious. Today I read Psalm 93:3-5, which for whatever reason made me think it'd be a great basis for a song! Haha. Yeah, I'm cool. Anyway, it says, "The floods have lifted up, O LORD, the floods have lifted up their voice; the floods lift up their waves. The LORD on high is mightier than the noise of many waters, than the mighty waves of the sea. Your testimonies are very sure; holiness adorns Your house, O LORD, forever" (Psalm 93:3-5). God is greater than the noise, the height, and the power of whatever you're facing. If God is for you, what could ever be against you?

Yourself
I think I'm doing this for myself more than anyone else. I take the blame easily -- maybe too easily? -- and sometimes I take it harder than I should. I just have to realize that He is GREATER. In Genesis 1:6, God says He made the "greater light to rule the day, and the lesser light to rule the night." Have you ever thought about how God is the greater light of us and we are the lesser light? No matter how bad we are, God shines brighter than us or our problems.

God, thank you for being greater than my own heart and knowing everything (1 John 3:20). Help me to become more like you and gain the abundance of peace you have for me, which lasts until the moon is no more (Psalm 72:7). You have done sooo much for me. "I sing with joy because of what you have done" and let it be so for the rest of my life, even if I'm not as consistent as I should be in thanking You (Psalm 92:4). Let me "become complete" with You (2 Cor. 13:11). Much love to you Padre <3 I'm working on it ...

Thursday Thoughts and the 30 Hour Famine

I promised I'd write more regularly! :) First, I'll start with some thoughts I had on Thursday. Every Thursday I drive about 2 hours at least. Thus, I have a lot of time to think haha. My thoughts in this post will consist of why good people die, a misfit army, and then my 30 hour famine (that I didn't do alone of course haha).

1) Why do good people die?
One of the most trying, difficult question a Christian must face. Non-believes consistently ask this question and Christians consistently don't have an answer. I don't have the answer. Honestly, the question is valid and isn't easy to respond to. Of course, whoever said the answers were supposed to be easy? While I was driving, I was thinking of how sad (obviously) it is when someone dies. For some reason, this deceased person always seems to have the most potential to change the world. Or they seemed to be one of the best people you ever knew or came across. Something makes them stand out from the world as superior to the others and all you can say to yourself sometimes is, "Why them?" Out of all people, they had so much life to live. Even the not-so-great people still could've turned their lives around and you ask yourself, "Why so soon?" But as I was driving, I realized something. We mourn about good people dying. There isn't anything wrong with that. Yet, at the same time, the GREATEST man that ever walked this earth died for us -- but Christians and non-Christians alike don't mourn about it. I'm not saying we don't care about His death -- we do. I'm also not saying we need to walk around in black, crying our eyeballs out of our sockets. Instead, I'm saying if we truly cared, we would be devastated. If we cared, we would rejoice in Christ's resurrection every single day. If we cared, we would tell the world about Him. If we cared, life's circumstances wouldn't get us down. If we cared, we could change the world. If we cared, we could stand up from the hilltops and proclaim Jesus like nobody has before. Let the lost ones in this world inspire you.

2) Misfit Army
Don't laugh. I find my tag clever ... Actually, that phrase, "Misfit Army," kept pounding in my head. Usually, that means I'm supposed to take action on a recurring idea. A lot of times, for me, it means to write about it. Basically, I was just admiring God. He is so anti-world. It's great! Haha. I was in awe. Well, I still am I guess ... God uses the weakest to be His strongest. Some of the most broken, messed up people are the people God uses for His glory the most. For example, take a girl who has done drugs, cut herself, gotten pregnant out of wedlock, nearly commits suicide, but finds Jesus instead. Those types of people have a fire like I've never seen for Jesus. Not only do I love that, but I love that Jesus uses the weakest to lead -- by the world's standard -- the "strongest." Can you imagine a chief officer placing his weakest men in the front? Weird strategy, right? Why would someone place a guy with a missing arm in the front row? Exactly; it makes no sense. Yet who uses that strategy and EXCELS? Jesus. And it only works with Him ...

3) 30 Hour Famine
Food never tasted so good after that famine (which, for the record, I actually went 31 hours! ;) For me, it showed how selfish I am. I was SO excited to eat ... and it was only 30 hours. Usually, I can't go 30 minutes without eating. And I whined and complained because I'm a weenie. So for me, yes, it was an accomplishment. I shouldn't have complained and focused more on what matters. So what matters? People around the world who go much longer than 30 minutes from eating. In fact, it kills men, women, and children alike everyday. What do I do? Sit on my couch and eat Goldfish. COOL. I'm a great Christian :P I think what I'm trying to say is ... after the famine, I realize how much time I waste thinking of myself.

I'm not in the Misfit Army -- I'm misfit FOR the army. I suppose that makes me the perfect candidate for You, doesn't it? Lord, train me to be worthy of your army of love that proclaims not ourselves,  "but Jesus Christ as Lord, with ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake. For God, who said, 'Let light shine out of darkness,' has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ" (1 Cor 4:5-6).

Where do we keep our treasure? In "jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us" (1 Cor. 4:7).
And this is how the army stands: "We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but no driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies [...] So death is at work in us, but life in you [...] For it is all for your sake, so that s grace extends to more and more people it may increase thanksgiving, to the glory of God. So we do not lose heart [...] For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal" (1 Cor. 4:8-10, 12, 15-18).

A City Not Forsaken (Isaiah 62:12)

Hey everyone! I am really sorry for not writing lately; it's been over a month! Life has just been crazy. I'll try to get back into writing more often. For those of you that said you missed it, thank you! I wasn't even aware some of you were reading it :) To be honest, I started writing this blog because 1) I wanted to and fnally got around to it. 2) Because I felt led to start a blog. Now I realize that my writing was some of your weekly dose of Jesus outside of Sunday. So I apologize for dropping the ball ............ totally not living up to my purpose. But hey, I tend to do a pretty crappy job of living up to my purpose in general :) anyway ... BLOG POST. So I just recently came across this the other day. It's Isaiah 60:18-20 ...
"Violence shall no more be heard in your land, devastation or destruction within your borders; you shall call your walls Salvation, and your gates Praise. No longer will you need the sun to shine by day, nor the moon to give its light by night; but the LORD will be your everlasting light, and your God will be your glory. Your sun will never set, nor your moon withdraw itself; for the LORD will be your everlasting light, and your days of mourning shall be ended."
Ah, I love that. It's really just a beautiful and true description. Yet, I'm not going to lie. This past month has been all over the place; a lot of highs and a lot of lows. While I'm not saying it's wrong to feel sad or happy, I also realize that life's circumstances are some of the last things that should effect me. I mean, 1 Cor 13:11 says I am to "rejoice. Aim for restoration, comfort one another, agree with one another, live in peace; and the God of love and peace will be with you." What more could I ask for?

Let me break this down: I have JESUS inside of me. He died because He loves me. He thinks it's the best thing that happened to Him! He loves me enough to rejoice in my joy and mourn with my sadness. He's there all the time and sometimes ... I ignore Him. I pretend like He's not even there. That's what I have to give back. There are days where I go my entire day without even a quick thank you to my Saviour. If your best friend is with you, do you completely ignore them? No. Does that make me a sinner? Yeah, I most definitely am for a lot of reasons. That's just one of them.
What I love about Jesus is His never ending love and grace for me. I am nothing without Him, though for some reason, I like to think I am worth something WITHOUT Him in the picture. But then, that day comes, where everything goes awry. I reach rock bottom and realize I truly am nothing and I need the One who is EVERYTHING. And what does He whisper while I lay in bed wishing to change things? "Daughter, my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Thus, boast gladly in your weakness that My power may rest upon you. Be content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when you are weak, then you are strong" (2 Cor. 12:9-10). Why He chose to save me I'll never quite fathom.

He my "hero" and my King who stooped down to rescue me -- a little slave in the millions of faces. He spotted me in the midst of the crowd, looked at me straight in the eye and said, "I want you." He adopted me into His family and made me His own. He tells me everyday that He loves me with the beauty of His creation and little blessings in the day. He cleaned me and made me new. He even calls me His heir. What King does that? What person in their right mind would do that? Who is this God ... He even devotes His time and life to me. As Galatians 4:1-7 says, "I mean that the heir, as long as he is a child, is no different from a slave, though he is the owner of everything, but he is under guardians and managers until the date set by his father. In the same way we also, when we were children, were enslaved to the elementary principles of the world. But when the fullness of time had come, God sent forth his Son, born of woman, born under the law, to redeem those who were under the law, so that we might receive adoption as songs. And because you are sons, God has sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, crying, 'Abba! Father!' So you are no longer a slave, but a son, and if a son, then an heir through God." My Jesus saved me from the "prince of the power of the air" and made me the princess of all that was and is good in this life (Eph. 2:2). In the richness of His mercy, grace, and love, He made me alive in Him and He placed me right next to Him (Eph. 2:1-10). Gah ... idk how to express my gratitude. No amount of feelings could really return all He has done for me. And you. And your ancestors and your children and your children's children. He loves so well.

So ... yeah, life's not perfect. I have to get over that just like everybody else on this planet. At least I know I'm just making a stop for gas before I get home, throw my arms around my Daddy's neck, and tell Him that I've missed him. Isaiah 64:8 sums up what I'm trying to say well I think:

"[N]o eye has seen a God besides you, who acts for those who wait for him. You meet him who joyfully works righteousness, those who remember you in your ways. Behold, you were angry, and we sinned; in our sins we have been a long time, and shall we be saved? We have all become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous deeds are like a polluted garment. We all fade like a leaf, and our iniquities, like the wind, take us away. There is no one who calls upon your name, who rouses himself to take hold of you; for you have hidden your face from us, and have made us melt in the hand of our iniquities. But now, O LORD, you are our Father; we are the clay, and you are our potter; we are all the work of your hand."

Mold me into the person I'm meant to be. Help me forget my desires and make Your desires my desires. Keep my focus on You that everything else can fall into place, even if it's not in the place I want them to be. I love you and I can't wait to spend eternity in the heavenly realm where I am not forsaken, but loved. Who are we as Christians? "Sought Out, A City Not Forsaken" (Isaiah 62:12). Don't let me forget ...

Pure Bliss

"Is anyone happy? Let them sing songs of praise." James 12:13

Indeed, thanks for asking, I am quite happy today! I had a good day; one of those days where you are just happy all day long and think Jesus is too amazing to be real! I got to talk to my best friend tonight, and she is such a blessing in my life. I don't know what I'd do without her. I thank God everytime I remember her (Philippians 1:3) -- well, almost always. But hey, nobody is perfect! :) I sung my praise to my Jesus in the car, because that's some of my quality time with Jesus, interestingly enough ;) As Psalm 100:2 says, "Worship the LORD with gladness; come before him with joyful songs." He's our Lord, Savior, Counselor, Best Friend, etc. He is just so AWESOME. I feel like I'm degrading him when I use a word so inefficent to describe him sometimes, but it's true! He is ....... awesome.

Although, I know some of you reading this probably aren't happy like I am today. Maybe you had a really crappy day; week; month; year; I don't know. When times are hard, they can really impact your life. Circumstances can wipe you out. But God calls us to "give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus" (1 Thessalonians 5:18). I know that's hard. I don't know what you're going through. I try not to expect or understand how you're feeling either. (If you want to talk about it, I am always open.) But if you're a Jesus follower like me, you're my family -- I want to walk and pray with you. For my close friends, I already do so, and "thank God for all of you and continually mention you" in my prayers (1 Thessalonians 1:2).

As I reflected on just how blessed I am (which I'm sure I always underestimate), I read Ecclesiastes 7:14, which says, "When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider this: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, no one can discover anything about their future." That verse hit me. Times are good, so I'm really happy right now! But this verse gives us a reality check. When times are good, they're going to get bad again. But for all of you suffering in tribulation, take heart: when times are bad, they're going to get better. God never loses control of the situation, but things change. What's the one thing that never changes though? Jesus. Therefore, let us be "joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer" to the one and only steady thing in our lives (Romans 12:12).

A Couple Poems and a Rainbow

In my American Lit. class today, we read a couple poems that stood out to me. One was Richard Corey by Edwin Arlington Robinson and the other was George Gray by Edgar Lee Masters. Robinson depicts a man who has everything (the title "Richard Corey" is supposed to remind us of this guy: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Richard_I_of_England). As you read the poem, a standard forms in your mind that makes you praise and respect Corey as a great man, like he's a king. But in the end, Corey puts a bullet to his head and kills himself. In my last post, I said I have a heart for the elderly and poor, but I also have a sort of sympathy for the rich (which is weird, I know). I think it's devestating to see someone with everything they could ever want, yet have absolutely nothing to treasure after this life. As Mark 8:36-37 says, "For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul? For what can a man give in return for his soul?"

That's when you look at Masters' poem, George Gray: a man who regrets not living life when he had the chance. Here's the poem below:

I have studied many times
The marble which was chiseled for me --
A boat with a furled sail at rest in a harbor.
In truth it pictures not my destination
But my life.
For love was offered me and I shrank from its disillusionment;
Sorrow knocked at my door, but I was afraid;
Ambition called to me, but I dreaded the chances.
Yet all the while I hungered for meaning in my life.
And now I know that we must lift the sail
And catch the winds of destiny
Wherever they drive the boat.
To put meaning in one's life may end in madness,
But life without meaning is the torture
Of reslessness and vague desire --
It is a boat longing for the sea and yet afraid.

When I die, I don't want people to say, "Oh, Becca, the one who was too afraid to do anything" or "Becca, the weak one in everything." I want people to say, "Becca made a difference. She didn't let life's circumstances bring her down. She was brave. She loved so much we all feared her heart might burst with it. But above all, she followed Jesus -- and it showed." I don't mean that in an egotistical way. I just want to leave this life knowing I lived with meaning, unlike the above poem. That way, I can hear my Father's voice tell me, "Well done, good and faithful servant!" when I reach heaven (Matthew 25:23).
I read about when God first sets the rainbow in the sky this morning, signifying his covenant to never flood the earth again (Gen. 9:12-16). So many times you must weep for the earth when You remember all that has happened. But then, after the rain, you set Your beautiful rainbow in the sky and remind Yourself, "No, I will never flood the entire earth again to wipe out mankind. I love my children." Let's be a witness for Christ; His sunshine in the lives of others so they tell themselves, "I want that." As Lord Byron wrote,

"Be thou the rainbow in the storms of life. The evening beam that smiles the clouds away, and tints tomorrow with prophetic ray."

Being Content and Thankful

Tonight, I read Psalm 30. David praises God in his Psalm, thanking Him for all He has done. In fact, David says he wants to give Him credit for his glory, that he "may sing your praise and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks to you forever!" (Psalm 30:12).  Today, in the sermon at church today, Pastor Meek said we need to warn and share because God cares. We should care too! Honestly, we all go through trials, including David. Sometimes, we forget others have problems, and think we're the only ones with real pain, real hardship, and real suffering -- but that's all false. If I need Jesus, doesn't everybody else? If that's true, then why don't I try harder to build God's kingdom? Basically, I'M A WEENIE. I'm too shy to introduce God to the perfect lover, best friend, wonderful counselor, and author of creation itself.

I think part of being bold is thanking God, rather than asking God out of insecurity. All I need is Christ. But two things: First, is Christ all I need? Yes. Do I truly believe Christ is all I need? ... idk, you tell me. What about you? Is Christ all you need? Do you believe Christ is truly all you need? To quote my last Biblical passage blog post, "Think over what I say, for the Lord will give you understanding in everything" (2 Tim. 2:7). Second, He has given me WAY more than I even deserve! Again, maybe I sound redundant by echoing my "God's will" post, but when we ask God for things, it's usually for our own gain, am I wrong? I know that's true for me. But let's face it: we're supposed to be content with just Him. We are to "Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus" (1 Thessalonians 5:18). He's supposed to be good enough -- and He is good enough!

David thanks God for his goodness. Not just sometimes, but all the time. He continually thanks God, through whatever storm or sun-shiny day he experiences. Should we not thank God everyday for His steadfast love and faithfulness as well? As one of my favorite passages in the Bible says, in Lamentations 3:40, "Let us test and examine our ways, and return to the Lord!" Amen.